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Originally Posted by
smallcapgrowth
I don’t look at it like that. Bj was great to me. I was getting triggered by my trauma ( you should be familiar with this ur a phycologist) when playing high stakes poker or banking high stake cal games. I have inter personal developmental trauma and it gets triggered during certain scenarios ( a version of tilt, but I know the deep underlying mechanics of it) and my fight response would get triggered and my body would get hot and it would feel like a death like feeling and the only way to relieve the pressure was to do something. The minute I got off the poker table and made a big bac bet my heart beat would slow down and I felt “in control” of the situation.
i don’t believe in addiction cause there is always underlying emotional stuff driving it. That’s why u see people in aa who get sober and get real fat, or people in GA start drink ect.
there is always unconscious reasons for behavior.
to say this is what happens to youngsters is completely foolish. Bj is fine, there’s a lot of casinos and clean names can always make a couple 100k before it gets hard to play. So I strongly disagree with ur post. Bj was nothing but good to me and it didn’t activate my fight , flight , freeze or fawn responses like playing against another human did .
Meanwhile im 10x the player of anyone on these forums but i get 1 outed on a daily basis when I play. I can have max bets with 20s against a 2,3,4,5,6 and ill lose them time and time again. The whole table including the dealer gets blackjacks i get 12s and 13s and 14s. Just makes me laugh. Im headed for the nearest bridge soon. Im done with this bullshit life. This isnt just blackjack relates but everything ive done in my life hard work never pays off. I just get trolled time and time again in whatever i do.
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