Got absolutely Destroyed the last 2 days in 5.5 hours of play. 30% of my BR gone. Total loss 240 units of my 800 unit bankroll gone in 1 hour playing heads up DD... amazing 550 hands....Tonight I won 2 hands when the count was +2 or higher. when the count was +4 or higher I lost all of them... and this occured about 15 times at a price of 10 units each... (2 hands of 5)... dealer would get 20 to my 19's or worse or if I was lucky we would push.

I walked out in a daze, slightly embarassed, slightly shamed, and contemplating if this is such a good idea afterall. I know that I am playing correctly, betting properly, and deviating from BS according to the Ill 18. But last night was a killer.

I realize this game will test your soul... but last nights 60 unit loss (topped off by 25 consecutive losing hands) and tonights 180 unit loss seems less like a test of the sould and more like the destruction of it.

It seems the last 4 weeks have been leading to something. First getting burned out and not playing much, and now getting killed at the tables the last 2 nights in a row...

I have done the math on the last 2 nights play... in 5.5 hours my ev is right around 11 units, 3S.D. is 77 units so probability speaking I shouldn't have lost more than 66 units nor won more than 88.

I just am sitting here shaking my head wondering how it happened and why I let it. I guess I relied on the math a little too much... but I know this with this loss my RoR has tripled from 1.15% to a little over 4.39%...

What do you do when this happens... How do you go back? I honestly dont want to see the inside of a Casino at this point. At this point curling up with my bottle of Glenfiddich seems like the best course of action.