I wrote everything related.

You are absolutely right,
I played for around 600hr , as i mentioned i was a gambler before so i was ok with high ror in starting, good variance helped me alot i 4 timed my bankroll, not lying i won straight for first 15 sessions. But then had couple of loosing sessions but i was ok. But one day i couldnot loose a single bet all my dd sp were working all day, won around 2700$ my max win in one day. But next day negative variance hit i lost 3000$ even though i was up in total my gambler took over and lost my whole bankroll in like 1 hr. I started playing baccarat and high limit bj. Then i gambled for few weeks from pay cheque to paycheque.
But finally took control over myself never gambled straight for 3 months.( before everyday). Practice practice practice for 3 months i can confidentally say i am perfect now. But last week i got the urgue to gamble again lost 100 deposited 100 again trying to winn back at a point i was 1k down. I deposited 1 k doubled 2 bets won 4k. And left. Gambling tooks over again.

I literally know and feel like i can never quit gambling untill i stay connected to gambling in some way. Learning counting in black jack atleast helped me not to gamble for 5 moneths. But before learning i was gambling anytime possible. And will continue for lifetime if i try to just stop going to casino and suppress it.
Winning through counting cards atleast releases some dopamine to help me quit gambling.

Now i know all the math behind all these games i think thousand times more than before if i get urgue to game. Only way i see to quit gambling is through advantage play.