So after my last post when I had lost nearly half of my earnings for the year, I decided to continue playing. On Tuesday this week I toiled for about three hours and managed to eke out $330, after I was more than that behind after the first shoe. It didn't help losing the first shoe in the last eleven sessions that I played.
I went back again last night, and lost another $980. There was nothing I did differently than before. I wasn't on tilt. I just played the cards as they were dealt to me. A few observations:
(1) On the table I was generally the ONLY one losing. There were countless hands when I got dealt a stiff and busted where everyone else got either a pat hand or drew to one. Then the dealer busted. Everyone else was so happy that their obnoxiousness pervaded the air. When I played heads-up, I just slowly bled chips.
(2) The dealer made a blackjack (no hole card here) or 21 almost exclusively on the occasions when I hit or doubled to a twenty.
(3) In the first THREE HOURS of my session, betting two boxes of $40+, I did not net win a SINGLE hand when the count was +2 or more. Yes you saw that one right. A success rate of 0%.
(4) I was never ahead of my initial value the entire session. I did have a few modest winning streaks of four our five hands when the count was negative and I was betting minimum. I had two losing streaks of 11 hands though.
I am really losing my belief that this is even a theoretically positive game. I have now lost more than $4000 in the last month and I only have $3500 of my original $7700 profit for the year as of mid-February. My personal view is that I will continue playing, until I inevitably reach the rugged settlement of Zero and enter Minusland. I have a gnawing feeling that this is only going to take another four or five sessions.
In the meantime I don't think I've done anything wrong. I've made LESS errors in the last few weeks simply by memorising my indices better.
I know that books say that all losing streaks come to an end and we will eventually win back our losses and then some. But I am just losing losing losing. And more importantly, LOSING WHEN I HAVE THE ADVANTAGE ON PAPER WHEN THE COUNTS ARE BIG. I still retain the belief that advantage IS related to TC because the REST OF THE TABLE WINS MORE HANDS. But I am just LOSING LOSING LOSING
I really would like your help. Please.
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