KJ, in your humbling year thread I believe you mentioned you profited over $100K in 2013 and that basically all of your food is comped, and in a different thread you mentioned you share a living space with 3 people which I'd imagine would keep rent costs pretty manageable. I live a pretty basic lifestyle so if I had a year with that kind of profit relative to the expenses I mentioned, I'd be sitting pretty and not needing more profit for a little while. I guess I'm wondering what money is to you - is it a means to an end or an end in itself? Being in a stable relationship I'm assuming you don't feel the need to project yourself to the outside world as a "high roller" in order to attract a certain type of partner and if you're willing to subsist on casino food I'm also assuming you don't have the need to display opulent tastes just for the heck of it.
Are you wanting to live a satisfying lifestyle where you have the things you need to feel comfortable or are you on a keeping up with the Joneses type of treadmill based on outward signs of wealth? I'm not intending to judge you either way - you're certainly entitled to do what you want with the money you wager and earn but I'm wondering what fuels your need to never take a break. Love of the game? If that were the case you could lower your stakes/risk for awhile and play with less stress (and heat). Do you not take well to rest and relaxation and thrive on the frenzied casino atmosphere? Is it that you "can't" take a break or simply don't want to?
I'm certainly in no position to advise you on the subtleties of the game, but maybe this series of events combined with your dissatisfaction with your results in the previous year would make it worthwhile for you to reflect on what your goals truly are as a player and a human and to clarify your psychological relationship to money. Barring some kind of drug addiction or outlandish taste in cars/jewelry/collector's items/etc, I'd think your earnings in 2013 and the preceding years would allow you to take a step back and a few deep breaths, maybe visit a country or two (preferably without casinos) that you've always wanted to go to assuming your relationship situation allowed for it.
You've obviously put in an enormous amount of hours - I wouldn't be surprised if you saw patterns of spades and diamonds when you close your eyes. Not to mention smelling tobacco smoke and hearing incessant dings of slot machines. Even if they aren't now, don't you think burnout or fatigue may come into play eventually? Why not take steps to avoid them and the economic penalties that come with them before they come up instead of after?
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